So excited about what God is gonna do in my life! Use me,Use meeeee!

27/3/2012: failed the terminator challenge at roadhouse by 1 bread and a few fries…disappointing,but overall,great time spent with colleagues!

simplicity

i like that i went and see,and cannot forgot that the simple life is a possibility.
I’m all smiles nowadays or more accurately,more smiles,i feel different. Different from what i used to be,different from people around me,not angry about life,or regretful..not one bit. This feeling is amazing,i can put it in words,its simple,so simple,everything. Simple used to be an impossibility,being so stressed out and rush about anything….but this trip,changed my mind,broke my heart,broke my harden heart…showed me that it was possible,that what ‘they’ said about true joy or happiness is absolute nonsense,they got us fooled,all of us.

The funny part is that i know about this in singapore,where i am,before i went…people talk about it,that what ‘they’ say is as such…and i knew,i realised that,i pursued simplicity,but sadly,i found nothing but my own tail… But seeing,not through a video on youtube with all its tangibility,not by reading articles nor by mere donations,none of these will make your heart turn……oh none of these will do as much as seeing it with your own eyes. Perhaps this is the only way,and this is how i found simplicity.

beautiful dreaming

You’re gone from my gaze like a beautiful dream. And I seek you in vain by the meadow and stream.
I missed you unknowingly….irrationally…unfamilar

missions objectives?

Less than a week till i set off to cambodia.

Objectives,what i wanna get out of this whole experience,what i expect out of this trip,what area of my character,how would i grow spiritually and all these seemingly essential questions to ask.

But for me personally,setting certain objectives is rather rhetorical,and often,on very human terms. Certain objectives,in terms of missions are as such : like ‘i hope to grow more in love’,'i wanna grow in my character’,'i wanna expand my heart for the needy’,'i hope to grow in humility’ and all the other objectives that if we do a little bit of questioning would be found rhetoric. I think the objective: ‘i wanna grow in this area of my character’ is so redundant,and if one pens it down and finds that he grew,often one would place a tick beside to acknowledge that he achieves,and if so then what does this mean? That he perfected a character trait? His saving grace would be ‘by what measure’,but how do you even measure a character trait? Possible maybe,if he was a lawless criminal,or just a really bad example of that certain trait. This example can be used for many of the objectives one sets.
Or maybe you want to expand your heart to the needy,so you went and return and your heart is expanded and now,you probably won’t ignore the next needy person you see in singapore,but what can you do,how much or rather how long would you give be able to give? You are only able to help for a short amount of time. We are still limited! We all know the physical effect of short term missions is not forever,things that are physical will run out,water,gifts,food and all these wonderful things. Why state ‘grow in giving’ when you’ve already planned on giving? Why state grow in love when you’ve already planned to love? What does it even mean when one says to give more,or love more? give enough,or given my all? There is a difference between the two.

It is dangerous if one does not realised the purpose or meaning of going and the difference between the church and the world. There is no difference in what both does in terms of meeting needs,however there is a distinct purpose that we know and we know that last forever,beyond the needs we’ve met. It is so important that when we set an objective it has to be through prayer and seeking god and not through human thinkability. But still,sometimes it requires abit of wisdom of cos.

I think planning objectives are not suitable for matters of the heart,for they are not measurable and is absolute futility if we see it with human eyes.

By faith then.